Have not forgotten about y'all

I wanted to write a quick little post. I made it back from my trip with my sanity in tacked. The kids were surprisingly easy to travel with. Though I do have a few funny stories to share, but that will have to be saved for another day.
I will probably start writing more often next week. Due to something is happening to someone I know. Since it is not me and something important. I can't share the details. So I will be preoccupied for the next couple of days while things settle down.
So check back in a couple of days! Stay strong ladies! We are after all the loving backbone of our men in uniform!

Rachel

Very sleepy today

For some reason, I got the bright idea to stay up last night til 1:00am. I have been sleepy all day! So needless to say I am calling it an early night.
Last week, it seemed like there were tons to write about. Today I tried several times to sit down and write. But I can't seem to wrap my head around any topic. It's probably because I am exhausted and I have tons to do today. Since I was so tired, I didn't manage to take care of half the stuff I wanted to.
So here to hoping for more energy tomorrow. I have lots to do before my trip to see my dh!!!

Hope everyone had a better start to there week!!

Rachel

Blogging my new best friend

Thank God, Friday has finally come!! I have only 6 more days til I make the long trip to visit my husband at AIT!!!! Believe or not I am looking forwarded to the 12hr drive that lays ahead. I am even going to bring my two beautiful boys along. Which is a very scary thought, since they are 3 and 5! But I think they need this trip as much as I do. If I could figure out away. I would bring our little pug along too!! It has been far to long since our family has been together as a whole :)
But enough about that. I wanted to share with you how this blog has effected me so much after only a week. Blogging has something I always wanted to do. I have never been that good at writing or grammar. Which I sure you can already tell.
A couple of months ago, I happened to come across Megan's blog "To Love a Solider". After reading one of her post, I reaches out to her. I had been going through a really tough time, after my dh left for AIT. She quickly responded and gave me the strength to carry on. ( I will post the link to her blog as soon as I can)
Even though I have support of my family and my dh family. I don't think they truly can understand what it is like to have your husband gone for months at a time. My mom often complains that she has to go three weeks without seeing my dad, due to the crazy amount of traveling dad has to due with his job. As much as I understand, her sadness. I can't help but think, my husband has been gone for almost 6 months, with the two week break for Christmas exodus. How can she even compare what she is going through to what I am going through. But Megan could understand what I was dealing with.
I hope by sharing what I am dealing with to provide support to someone, like Megan did for me. So the lesson I have learned and hope to pass on. Is to not holding in what you are feeling. You are not alone. You may have to get creative when it comes to finding your support system. But there is truly a difference between a military wives support system and a civilian support system. They are both wonderful in there own way!

So I pray for all the silent ranks, whether you are a mom, sister, girlfriend, love one, wife or husband. It is because of us, and our support that our men and women are able to do what they do!

Rachel

Getting Better!

I am taking baby steps in the right direction! Last night I finally managed to put the kids to bed before 10. Which was a big improvement over 11:45!! Tonight I was sucessful again and they were alseep by 8:30. I like that alot more! So I am able to take sometime to myself and read my romance books. I have been feeling alot less stressed now that the kids are going to bed at a decent time. Hopefully it will continue and I can get a few moments of peace, before I have to start another day. I am begining to realize how precious the hour and a half is to my sanity. Espically with my dh gone. If this continues, then I plan to tackle my house. It has been bothering me for sometime. I am planning on moving closer to my mom since David is going to be gone for a year. I hate to say it, but I let everything fall apart after David left in January for AIT. I never thought that I would let myself fall into pieces. Bootcamp was so much easier to take. Which is kinda crazy to say. We certainly talked a lot less. His phone priveledges were always getting taking away due to some young guy or girl not following the rules. I guess it was easier on me because I knew it was only temporary. Since I also was keeping busy with school and the kids. Though that part has not changed, in the least bit. Hmmm, maybe I can't explain what it was. Maybe I just took it alot easier. Whatever the reason, the fact still remains I fell apart when my dh left for AIT. I am scared that when he leaves again for his TDS. I will fall apart again. I am taking as many steps as I can to prevent that from happening. I don't expect to be superwomen, or at least I don't anymore. I learn my lesson from that one. But I dont want to totally lose it. It has been hard on my dh, and kids. Since they are used to me trying to be superwomen. So when my dh has to put on his boots to leave, I'll tie my apron strings and push on. I want my dh not to worry or at least not all the time :) So here is to navagiating this thing called Army life! As my dh would say Hoorah!

Help

Last night I was not successful at making time for myself. My three year old refused to go to sleep. He has had a hard time adjusting to my dh being gone. Which in turn has taken my focus off of myself, since I am worried about him adjusting.
I never imagined how hard it would be without my husband here. I took care of so much, I sometimes felt like I did it all anyway. Since he left for AIT, I feel like I lost the huge support that he gave me. My dh is always there to keep me and the kids calm. Now I am learning on how to do it on my own.
Somewhere in there I have to find time for myself. Which boggles my mind! As a new Army wife, I have taken the position of juggler in my crazy circus of a life. So I am taking it one small step at a time.

Here is to juggling, hope I don't drop anything :)

Rachel

Taking care of oneself.

The subject of taking care of oneself has been weighing on my mind for the past couple of days. David and I start dating about 7 months after I turned 18. When our relationship started, I stopped focusing on myself. After we were dating for a couple of years, my kids came along. Focusing on myself, was pushed even further down the list.
So how do we do this as wives and mothers? How do I even began to focus on myself, when other things seem so important?
Heck, I can't even find time to take care of the things that I feel I need to. There is only so many hours in a day and I have only so much energy.
But someone told me, that if I want a military marriage to work and be a good mom at the same time. I need to find time for myself without any distractions.
Now my goal is to figure out how to do this. Not to mention, what to do for my few quiet moments. I used to read alot, I want to find time for that again. Here is to navigating life as a mom and an army wife :D

Rachel

Topic, Topic ?

I am trying to decide what I want my blog topic to be. There are so many things in my life that I would like to change and improve. Then there are things in my life, that I have lots to write about for instance my kids, and my husband. I have no clue what I want to write about. So I guess I will start with something as simple as an quick introduction. My name is Rachel. I have been married to my wonderful husband, David, for almost 6 years. We have two beautiful children. Nathan is my oldest, he is 5 years old. Nathan is always looking to take care of me and help me. Shaun is my baby, he is 3 years old and is constently giving me a run for my money. David just joined the Army in October 2010. So now we are learning how to navigate Army life. He is currently at AIT, and then after he is going to do 1 year unaccompied tour :( We miss him terribly. So I think I am going to just write down my thoughts and hopefully it will take a direction by it self. Here is to a new adventure! Rachel