Getting Better!

I am taking baby steps in the right direction! Last night I finally managed to put the kids to bed before 10. Which was a big improvement over 11:45!! Tonight I was sucessful again and they were alseep by 8:30. I like that alot more! So I am able to take sometime to myself and read my romance books. I have been feeling alot less stressed now that the kids are going to bed at a decent time. Hopefully it will continue and I can get a few moments of peace, before I have to start another day. I am begining to realize how precious the hour and a half is to my sanity. Espically with my dh gone. If this continues, then I plan to tackle my house. It has been bothering me for sometime. I am planning on moving closer to my mom since David is going to be gone for a year. I hate to say it, but I let everything fall apart after David left in January for AIT. I never thought that I would let myself fall into pieces. Bootcamp was so much easier to take. Which is kinda crazy to say. We certainly talked a lot less. His phone priveledges were always getting taking away due to some young guy or girl not following the rules. I guess it was easier on me because I knew it was only temporary. Since I also was keeping busy with school and the kids. Though that part has not changed, in the least bit. Hmmm, maybe I can't explain what it was. Maybe I just took it alot easier. Whatever the reason, the fact still remains I fell apart when my dh left for AIT. I am scared that when he leaves again for his TDS. I will fall apart again. I am taking as many steps as I can to prevent that from happening. I don't expect to be superwomen, or at least I don't anymore. I learn my lesson from that one. But I dont want to totally lose it. It has been hard on my dh, and kids. Since they are used to me trying to be superwomen. So when my dh has to put on his boots to leave, I'll tie my apron strings and push on. I want my dh not to worry or at least not all the time :) So here is to navagiating this thing called Army life! As my dh would say Hoorah!